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I*and*SSRI: Reiki Edition!

I’m starting the third week of taking 75% of my usual dose of SSRIs (citalopram, 20mg to begin with)!

I noticed recently that I’d been wanted to eat as a distraction. I’ve been biking more frequently, and that may have added to it, but I had the sneaking suspicion my body just wanted to find a way to create more serotonin. WELL….. Here’s what I came up with.

Reiki! Of course, I didn’t come up with reiki, but a little reiki goes a long way! I’m certified Level 2—thinking about getting certified Level 3 and Master soon, but no rush.

So I get stressed (as I did this morning concerning an unrelated dentist appointment). I can feel my agitation much more clearly, but I can also 1) Stop, 2) Breathe, and 3) Observe. After doing this, I realized I needed a brief chillout interlude. That’s where the reiki comes in!

I did a mini-session on myself. I count self-reiki by breaths. Often times I’ll do 30 deep breaths at each reiki point. This time I just did 10, and I’m feeling much better.

I plan to use this process to chill me out and keep from gobbling down the secret stash of Hershey’s Kisses I was told existed in the office…

Post-Reiki Epiphanies

I went to reiki sharing for the first time ever on Sunday. I knew it was an energy that I needed to get back in touch with. And now my heart is exploding. Forever.

I feel a distinct difference between my ego and my … I don’t know what to call it, but the all-loving, compassionate part of me-the part that’s connected to everything. I’m letting go of pain and fear I’ve been holding on to and inflicting on myself for years. I feel like a channel of good energy that I can focus on others and toward myself.

Here’s something I wrote while sitting by the lake yesterday. (Coincidentally, the same lake Otis Redding’s body was lost in. Yesterday was his birthday.)

Vice Versa

It’s like someone wiped the condensation from the porthole of my heart

And it was me.

I’ve always known that that life was there and now it’s visible.

I feel the love I always wanted to feel

But always found it so hard because of conditioning.

I see the beauty in everything and everyone - yes, even myself -

From the energy that connects it all.

I feel the fear that was unfounded fall away

because I let go of pain in all its forms.

I feel the influence of egos grinding against each other.

Beneath them all is a core of love

Respiration interchange,

a connection to celebrate, condemn, deny or ignore.

It’s all still beauty, no matter how it’s treated.

The world will cradle you if you chose to go limp in its embrace.

To feel you are complete as you are

Everything and always will be and vice versa and vice versa.

I don’t need to share with anyone to be complete

I’ve connected with myself and that’s everything I need.

That was the night

I let go of everything.

In perfect love and perfect trust,

OA

benevolentstranger:

Solar Plexus by RebelBAM

You are in your power.

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